i'm 43 years old i'm disability because of some stupid stuff i did back in 2005 i had some anger issues which i never had insurance or my own doctor to do the test that needed to be done but i know and i got my self my own doctor and i love it,i had alot of personal issues in my life,drama was a big big part of it,i tried to commit suicide 3 times i had 3 strokes and a heart attack back in 2005-2006 so i was close to death 6 times in my life i never want to experience that kind of life again,i alot going on i loss my job,i loss a good friend over gossip which is totally off the wall

i have all kinds of health and mental issues that i'm trying to deal with really hard its a hard thing to do when you couldn't get out of bed you were bed ridden for awhile so it wasn't an easy life for me at all in last 30-40 years of my life i had alcoholic parent and abusive parent at the time so i got alot of ptsd in my life that i kindly dont want to remember at all but i went through hell in the last 10-15 years so i'm getting better but its taken along time for me to get back on track or kind of anyways i just wanted to say thank you for hearing me out on everything